...and just like that...

...and just like that...I'm off track again. How does this keep happening to me?! This month is so crazy. I was looking at my calendar upstairs and realized that I've only done TurboFire 6 times this month - SIX TIMES! We are on the 16th already.
Blogging, not doing so well with that one either am I?! I haven't been blogging because I don't want anyone to know how badly I'm doing with every thing. I feel guilty. My eating is bad. My workouts are awful. I feel so tired and run down lately.
I would like to say that I've made a decision and that I'm going to join a gym tomorrow, although I can already feel excuses popping in my head with all the things I want to do and just not being able to squeeze it in. I've lost my workout partners, sort of. One is moving and one is pregnant. We've missed so many workouts this month because of one thing or another. I've been using it as a crutch. If I join the gym I can go when I don't have anything else going on. The kids can go in the childcare area and I can get a break. I can get on the treadmill and hopefully not have my foot bother me any more. It sounds like a great idea. I'm already forming excuses to not go tomorrow - seriously, what is wrong with me lately?! Where did all my motivation go to? Please, send it back to me.
My best friend sent this to me on facebook, and I look at it often. It makes me smile.

I'm leaving on Thursday. My Uncle has a beach house and my Sister, the kiddos, and I are going for 4 days. It will be so nice to get away for a little while. I'm taking my running shoes. Maybe in the mornings I can get out for a jog of the neighborhood. It's a quiet, peaceful area and my Sister will be there to watch the kiddos. And here comes my excuse, she's on vacation too and won't want to watch the kids plus I'll get sand in my shoes. Those sound like good excuses right?!
When I get back I'm creating a challenge like my Sister just did. I'm going to go 7, yes a whopping 7, days without eating out and as clean as I possibly can. I WILL get back on track. Besides at the end of those 7 days is my birthday - I can reward myself for doing good. Aw, I'm thinking of rewards already! UGH!!