I don't want to...

I really don’t want to, but I must. I learned a hard lesson this week when I gained 3.4 lbs taking me back up to exactly 200. I really didn’t want to write that down for all to see; then I realized that really the only person that will read this is my sister and she has a been there done that type attitude to help me get through it. “If you’re not ready, don’t force it; just try to be observant” is what she told me. Seriously though I didn’t even think it was possible to gain so much in one week. I had a feeling it was going to be a bad week, but I was thinking along the lines of 1 or 2 pounds, not almost 4. It took me 3 weeks to lose 5 and only 1 to put almost all of it back on.

I’ve been thinking about the weight gain all night, and even had a good cry about it. It’s all behind me now, nothing I can do about it, so my head is up and I’m charging into the next week with a bit of “can-do” attitude.

Reflections on the past week: I tried to think of reasons as to why I put on almost four pounds. My loving husband said “maybe your period is due” and “maybe it was water weight from all the water you’ve been drinking”- LOL…he tries. For some reason over this past week I had the mentality that I didn’t need to write it down, after all I lost 2 lbs last week without tracking. Even as I was eating stuff that I knew better (really Angie did you need to buy Newman’s Own cookies to put in the cookie jar?), I really didn’t seem to care. Where did my motivation go? Probably the same place as my sleep. The wonderful news is Denver is finally starting to sleep for longer periods of time (5 to 6 hours instead of 3 to 4) – although it feels as if I’m more tired now that I’m actually getting some sleep. Katelynn is being very 2 these days which is so very draining; in ways she has even digressed some (they say that happens when another child comes along). Chris is on deployment again. Hmmm…can I come up with any more excuses as to why I didn’t take the time to log what I ate? Can I think of anyone else to blame but myself? Give me time and I just might!

Good news on the exercise front. I got cleared last week, so I’ve started walking more (can’t run unless Chris is here…I don’t think the snugli’s are meant for running with a 6 week old?! LOL). I strapped Denver to my chest, put Katelynn in the jogging stroller, and hooked Vinson up and off we went – boy what a workout! I was sweating after the first block. Looks like it’s going to rain for the next two days so I think I’ll give the band DVD workout a try. Chris also said, “maybe you’re eating more because you’re walking more” that would be so true if I didn’t just start that 2 days ago when the weather got nice.

I’m starting the “week” off right and I’m tracking. I logged my breakfast already. I’m going to remind myself that even if I don’t log a meal or I miss a day that not all is lost. Do not give up on the entire week just because of a bad day.

I don’t know what the WW tip for the week is yet. With Chris being gone I had to take the kids to the meeting with me and Katelynn had a huge meltdown – which could be a blessing in disguise because it prevented me from having a meltdown of my own over my weight gain (didn’t even see it was a gain until I got into the car). Two weeks ago it was to try new fruit and veggies – my sister tried a mango and shared it with me on Sunday. I never even knew what they looked like whole (I’ve seen and had them sliced before). It looked really easy so I might have to get one on my next trip to the grocery store. The fruit I tried was a Grapple. It "looks like an apple and tastes like a grape" is what the box said, and yes, it did look like an apple…tasted more like a grape icee…very sweet. It was not my favorite, but a nice change.

Goal:

My goal for the week is to take charge of my weight loss efforts. It’s my body and no one else can do it for me. I can complain all I want about the obstacles in my way, but ultimately it is up to me to make the changes.