What a long week! Chris was deployed (although by the pictures he sent me it looked more like a vacation), and I thought that I ate really bad overall (chocolate, pop tarts, pizza, etc). I did have a lot of rice and chicken with veggies for dinner (so easy to make). I don’t normally make bland stuff while Chris is here so it was a nice change of pace. I didn’t get a lot of sleep this week either so I did a lot of picking throughout the day and coffee drinking (lots of creamer please). I ate out twice too. Yet with all this I still managed to lose 2 lbs this week! I’m down to 196.
The big news of the week - I’ve decided to stop WW. Not because it doesn’t work, but because I just don’t have the time to take full advantage of the program (I’ll continue with it until my monthly pass expires in April). I’m ready to lose weight, I’m just not ready to give someone money for a program that I just don’t have the time to follow. I enjoy the weekly meetings but they are hard to make when Chris is gone, and since he’s leaving for 3 more weeks this Sunday and then possibly for 6 months shortly after that…it will be best to just wait awhile. I don’t think I’d benefit any from going to the weekly meetings and being constantly reminded of how bad I’m eating or how I just didn’t have the time to work out that week (plus the stress of either finding someone to watch the kids or dragging them to the meetings). Besides I can get all the weekly topics and updates from my Sister!
I really enjoy the WW magazine so I will continue my subscription. I know I can do this without WW and it will save us money to cancel my membership (money that will now go to doggy daycare). Livestrong (which I used last year) is free too! I’m all about saving money these days…especially with Stew’s wedding coming up (that’s my brother and he’s getting married in the Dominion Republic in May…ah, warm, sandy beaches).
Of course this in no way means I’ll stop my blog! I love writing. It gives me an outlet for how I’m feeling, and somehow it always seems so much more manageable when it’s all written down right in front of me. I’m still making a life style change; I’m just going to do it without WW, and I know I can be just as supportive of my sister (and myself) without the program.
Right now I’m making small changes like I did a year ago and I’m slowly losing. Aren’t those the type of changes that make you successful in the long run? Change one or two things here and there. All that matters to me is that I feel good about myself. I feel so down on me lately – nothing seems to be good enough. If I do get an occasional break then I feel guilty for not being with the kiddos. I read my sister’s update last week and she was so positive, it made me realize how negative I’ve been about everything. I’m hoping to turn that around this week. The funny thing about that is the topic at WW for the upcoming week “Celebrating your strengths.” We’re supposed to try positive self-talking. Too funny!
Tracking this week was really bad – I almost forgot what the WW tracker looks like and that’s a bad thing (especially when you’re paying to use it). It’s sad when I can’t remember the last day I tracked…what a rough week. It’s been nice having Chris home, but sadly he’s going right back out (gotta love sea duty!).
I’m trying to not beat myself up too much for my lack of commitment lately - it’s not like I didn’t just have a baby 6 weeks ago, that I have a 2 year old and a newborn demanding my attention, plus a dog who has some serious separation issues.
My thoughts for this week are all centered on food, but when aren’t they?! I think one of the worst things you can do is eat a snack while playing on the computer. It ranks right up there with eating a snack while watching tv… “HEY! Where did my snack go?!” or “I could’ve sworn I still had half of a sandwich to eat?!”
Chocolate is bad - very, very bad! I’ve never been one to eat chocolate - I’ve got bad enough skin and it just makes it worse, but when I do eat it why is it I can never have just one piece or just one bite of the stuff?? It’s really REALLY bad for me – usually once I have one piece then I crave it all day, just can’t get enough of the stuff. I am definitely not one of those people who one piece of chocolate a day will satisfy my craving. It is for this reason, and this reason alone (not even the 10 points stop me), that I will not keep Fiber One Chocolate Pop-tarts in the house. I can’t just eat one, I have to eat both, and then later in the afternoon I usually want more chocolate which leads to eating ANY that I can find. Throw in the husband being away and dealing with 2 under 2 by myself and what you have is a recipe for disaster!
Anyway, good news for this upcoming week – I go for my 6 week check-up on Thursday! I’ve been feeling pretty great for a few weeks now, so I don’t see why I won’t be able to start exercising. I still haven’t found my workout logs – guess I should look a little harder. Chris and I are going to go and get free weights and a medicine ball later this week. It looks like jumping rope might be my cardio while Chris is gone…wonder how long I’ll be able to jump for before being tired?! I remember jumping for hours as a kid…hmmm…maybe I’ll include a workout video in the list of things to get later this week?! LOL.
Alright, I’ve rambled on enough for one morning, so here are my goals for the upcoming week.
Food Goal – avoid chocolate…is this chocolate donut I’m eating considered “chocolate?!” and get back on track with recording what I eat.
Exercise Goal – to be cleared to work-out again!
Health Goal – remember, remember, remember to take that daily vitamin.
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