Passion and Emotion

The past few weeks have been pretty crazy and extra busy; I did however manage to Jazzercise 4 times a week like I wanted AND I lost 4 lbs!!! Next week is the big trip for Stew and Michaela’s wedding and Chris leaving for deployment…I forsee a very emotional week coming up, and here is to hoping that I can keep the emotional eating to a minimum. It shouldn’t be too hard in the Dominican Republic although I don’t want any “Charlotte” moments! LOL!! Not sure how many fresh fruit and veggies I should eat when they wash it all in water?! Hmmm…

I was reading through the Oxygen magazines that Barb has been passing on to me and in the February issue on the Publisher’s page (yes, I read it cover to cover, editor’s section and all…love this magazine!) and Robert Kennedy said, “Develop a passion for making your wish come true. Attach emotion to your goal.” I think this is what I’ve been lacking – the passion to make it happen. I was so devoted to losing weight last time that it seemed so easy. I’m sure having a trainer who kicked my butt helped, plus all the races Chris and I signed up for…but that’s just it. I turned my life upside down. I made my body and my health a priority in my life.

Once we resolve the feeding issues with Denver I think my focus might shift some. Chris is leaving and I will need/want to get out for awhile. I’m not sure just yet what form “getting out” will take; with each passing week Denver gets stronger and stronger. It will be no time before he can sit up in a stroller next to his sister and, hopefully, make life a little easier on the mobility front.

I saw this photo that Chris took of Katelynn and I at the zoo and I wanted to delete it instantly and Chris said I needed to use it as motivation, so here it is…motivate me.

I grimace every time I see this picture, so much for thinking I looked cute. I look frumpy and out of shape. It's just like at Jazzercise when I'm enjoying my workout and doing the high intensity moves and then I catch a glimpse of myself in the surround mirrors and wonder how someone so big can move and feel so good and I instantly feel self conscious again. It's a vicious circle, and all the tools needed to motivate me.