Barby: closing in on week 4

Last week was really rough. It is the first week I had pms with ww and it was really an emotionally draining week. It felt like no matter what I did I couldn't get my act together. Everything was so much harder than it needed to be and I couldn't seem to get out of my own way. My clothes don't fit, my skin was breaking out (brutal when you are almost 40!), greasy hair and skin, not enough time in the day, and I didn't track despite telling myself I'd regret it. I tried really hard to stay on plan but sure enough, at week 3's weigh in I had gained 2 lbs, that's half of what I lost so far. And the worst part was I knew better, it was like watching a movie in slow motion. I left the meeting, got into my car and had a total meltdown. I cried, I hated, I beat myself up so badly. And for a couple more days the depression clung to me. Monday morning brought the start of a new work week and a new mindset. Somehow the 30 minutes of yoga i did the night before was just enough to put my mind back where it needed to be. I have tracked every single day this week and did not lie to myself or stop tracking because I didn't want to see myself go over my daily limit. Every BLT (bite, lick, taste) was recorded. I had some trouble fitting in the exercise I wanted but I did make sure that I went for two quick walks at work just to get away from my desk for a couple minutes. I feel more in control today, like this is a totally doable thing. I also noticed that I was kinder to myself. Yes my clothes are all to tight, but that will change. I looked past the breakouts and appreciated my eyes and their bright blue color.And as for my hair, well only my stylist Hailey can save me now! Weigh in is Friday, lets see what week 4 has to offer!